our story

Somewhere, sometime in our lives, we seem to come to the end of our road—where questions have to be answered and realizations must be validated to prove its reality and worth; and when it becomes essential to find the meaning of our existence, where do we find the answers? Where do we begin our search and where does it end? Is everything predestined, preordained? Or is it up to us to ordain our lives to what we want it to be?

One misty afternoon in September of 1988, while nursing myself through a heartbreak that caused me to lose my entire sense of being, a voice from the depths of my being, thundering and deafening, echoed through my very soul:  

Was God talking to me? Or was it just me talking to myself? I heard it over and over again until it faded into the long silence of the moment. Was it an imprint of a memory? Something I learned before? It was a strange feeling, but very familiar. Like it was part of my distant past. A primal instinct. 

This mystic event in my life prompted the beginning of my quest for TRUTH; of finding out who or what I really am, of finding the answers to the usual mind-boggling questions about life, God, love and my relationship to the entire universe. At first, I wondered if I should take the journey seriously. But then again, I asked myself, should I take life seriously in the first place? Nevertheless, though hopeless and confused, I consciously chose to take the quest by heart.

So, where do I begin? I opted to try them all. Many great teachers came before us—authors immortalized by their books. Surely, each one possesses a lesson or two for me to learn. Boldly, I let each one take my hand, and as they led me to their respective realms, guided me through their innermost thoughts, they became my silent teachers. 

After going through volumes of inspirational, philosophical books trying to find where I can best relate, in 1991, I started writing a journal of all the experiences and events that transpired during my quest. It was only to keep track of various concepts I would encounter along the way, which I felt were relevant to my search. I wanted to make a record of all the impressions and the occasional confusion I would experience each time I tried to relate everything into my life. Soon, it was filled with all sorts of notes and ideas. And, just then when I was getting so mixed up with all the different concepts and theories, the universe heard my plea, and EUREKA—I was introduced to an old friend of the family who just came back from the mountains of India. Later he was to be my friend and teacher.  

This man I would call “my guru” didn’t even think he was to me. He would guide me through the days of my endless search. He would be there to encourage me to go on whenever I was desperate. He was there to temper me when I was wisdom-hungry losing all sense of moderation. He was there to put me in place when greed and arrogance took hold of me. Henry (his name) would always say "When arrogance and pride surfaces, it is always coming from a wound we do not want to face."  Many times I would end up with feelings of anger after our meetings. 

My guru spoke with so much honesty that it would hurt so much. Few were his words, but it felt like a thousand daggers piercing through my very soul. He would challenge my beliefs, he would challenge my actions. He would break me like hell. But after, he would comfort me with his healing power. You see, he had this unusual gift of giving energy. My sessions with him would always end with him transferring the “life force” to me. He told me I could direct this energy to any part of me that I feel needs healing.

He was not the usual teacher, one who would give lectures all the time. Most of the time, I do the talking, and he would listen patiently. Then, he would say that I should decide myself which concept of truth was the right one for me. Truth, he said, "is anything you want it to be." Accountability to myself was first and foremost; only then I learned how to look and be responsible with my own TRUTH that it mattered. I learned that no one held the power to ONE TRUTH. But only until one has learned to be accountable, can we have the eyes to see.

My pursuit of knowledge caused me many, many sleepless nights. I would stretch myself to limits beyond human proportion. Many times my body suffered severely. But it was my beloved teachers’ healing energy that nursed me back to health. 

My search brought me around the world seeking for answers, until one day while I was meditating in an Indian Monastery, I heard the voice again…..

All the rest of the groups I’ve joined, the seminars and workshops I’ve attended—were all my teachers in this spiritual journey. Eventually, it was time for me to put them all together in harmony with my highest light….. 

THEN THE VISION OF PATHWAYS WAS BORNE...

We come from the space of many decades of EXPERIENCE... 

In most of my life, I’ve always been alone and kept in the dark, purging and learning by myself. Little did I know, I would actually build a community where people would merge from all walks of life, participating in the continuity of life in the new earth! I held the space of hope, faith, and love—never knowing where it will lead me. I just trusted my inner voice, my highest light!

You see, it took a long, narrow, winding road for me to get here. It took a lot of ups and downs, pain and traumas, breakdowns and breakthroughs, a lot of questioning, bargaining, and searching—it was never easy. And now, I can honestly say, it was all worth it!
 

Today, I’m here with the Pathways Core Members, and we’re here to let you know you’re not alone. 

This is us taking action and stepping out of the shadow, using what our own personal experiences taught us, serving as a bridge and a pathway for your own spiritual growth and transformation. 

We now invite you to look within yourself, and ask yourself: Why are you here? What is your own TRUTH?

Hello there! We are the Pathways Core Members. We are a group of heart-centered individuals walking the spiritual path together. Nurtured and mentored by Mommy Jackie—we have come together as bridges with the intention of harmony within as we participate in the continuity of life on the new earth.  

We have come from different backgrounds that have been brought together by this exciting goal of transformation. Souls first, we overcame the challenges of our very lives as we remember who we truly are—lived through the lessons it brought us—aiming to restore our lives to its pristine imperfectly perfect original state. 

Now we have joined together in this undertaking, wielding the light to assist in connecting people back to themselves. God’s love is expressed in the creation of humanity—as we  have found our awakening path to self-discovery, healing and transformation. Allow us to share our story with you....

Pathways is our spiritual home, Mommy J is our spiritual mother. It was here where we healed our wounds and actually felt and experienced its core teachings as we now practice them in our daily life. When we're talking about spirituality, there will always be events, downloads, visions, and realizations that go beyond words. You only get to understand them through experience, you only get to see their benefits through the positive changes in your life. 

This is where we found everything through nothingness. Where we found our new beginnings through ending our old cycles. This is where we stopped asking questions. Where we continuously heal our wounds to take our power and worthiness back. Where we continuously learn, give, receive, transform, and expand. It is also where we learned how even though we are seemingly different as we have our own spiritual creativity and imprint, we are all one and the same. 

We are all connected and linked, we share what you call spiritual connection. Pathways is our Soul Tribe. This is where we found each other and have chosen to come together in harmony as One—through the path of love.